My little dancers!

There are time when I am overwhelemed with amazement and graditude at how wonderful and talented my children are. They are such smart little cookies, and much more comfortable in their skin than I ever was as a child. Last night they were at the school for their rehersal, and there is no fear or doubts for either one of them in getting on that stage with those lights and just letting themselves feel that music and dance! Just before I hit record, Maia also didn't mind scratching, DOWN THERE, in front of about 100 people. God I love her! They both did great, and I admit I did cry a little, especially when Maia did her dance, because she is such a big girl now! A crazy thing happened when I was there though, I ran into a kid my best friend in 9th grade dated! I actually dated his brother for awhile too. It's so weird to see people you knew as kids having kids, and definately strange to have them live and send their daughters to the same dance school! It makes me feel old. Having my girls up on a stage, being wonderful and beautiful definately makes me feel old! But that is okay, because that means my life is developing and continuing down a beautiful path. And I get to learn things, like did you know if you want a tutu to be at it's fluffiest, you must hang it upside down? And you can also spritz a little hairspray on it to further fluffify it. In my house, that is critical knowlege, right next to being an expert in cleaning up vomit in 30 seconds or less, and how to make hair fancy. A little sparkle and glam never hurt anyone, except for a little girl named Cathy, who is in Sophia's dance, started crying because one girls outfit last night was "too bright and hurt my eyes". Classic!

Well, Hello Summer!

I'm pretty sure spring has sprung the joint, because it is hot hot hot here now, and has been for a week. Not uncomfortable, mind you, just a pleasent summer hot. The girls begged and begged me to get out the inflatable pool, so I caved and they enjoyed it immensely. Celia, the child who adores nothing more than playing in the dogs water bowl, just about flipped her stuff to see that she could actually climb into what looked like a giant dogs water bowl! This is before she gave herself a black eye later that day, which I am planning on taking a picture of when she wakes up from her nap. Back to the pool though. Maia was unsure, seeing as the water was ice cold, so she spent the hour standing in the water and getting back out. Sophia could care less about the temperature, so she laid in it and didn't get out until time was up.

Celia was sort of inbetween, so she stood there, trying to drink the water out of assorted toys, until after an hour she began to shiver, so I promptly took her out, much to her indignation. Once she was in dry clothes, she went back outside and tried to climb into the pool again, so watertime was over. I dumped out the pool, and laid it against the fence for the next day. Later that evening, Maia and I discovered that the dog ate the pool, and it is no longer in service. Guess we will be buying a hard plastic model for this year!
Seeing how happy the girls were in the water today makes this summer look very enticing. Today we went to the park, came home and played outside, and they were so dirty I had to bathe them before naps. You know you are having a good time when you are filthy by noon!

Growing up

Isn't it funny how life doesn't wait for you to process before it bestows it's next gift upon you? This week, seemingly the moment I returned from Hawaii, Sophia became a Big Kid. She graduated from preschool, and enjoy the videos from that, and learned how to swing, ALL BY HERSELF! That is Huge in the world of kids. I've been waiting for that day since the moment she was old enough to sit in a swing. It's been very tricky to swing 3 kids at once, what with only having two hands. She's suddenly out of naps compeltely, and getting ready for she and Maia's dance recital coming up. Also, she is now demanding to have her own stall at public restrooms, complete with locked door. This week also brought about a tour at kindergarten, which she is already beginning to worry about. She thinks she'll never see me again, or at least just at much as she sees daddy, so she's very sad about that. She's already telling Maia that she will have to be brave without her. Celia is suddenly talking as well, with things like "doggy, Woooooozy, uh oh, no, drink, milk, and mahhhhhhhh" Wow. Despite the recent tragedy, which I am still reeling over, I am acutely aware at how blessed I am to have such an amazing life. My kids are amazing, so smart and funny, my husband is a wonderful and kind rock, the rest of my extended family is beyond supportive and loving, and my friends are out of this world. Seeing something like Sophia pumping her legs on the swing is so much more moving when it's your own kid, and you see how that one act is the culmination of her whole life and growing up experience. So it's a big deal, seeing the helpless baby be flying through the air with such grace and ease. Beautiful as the wind. Walking across the stage in her cap and gown, like I remember doing 6 short years ago at college. Soon enough, she'll be walking that same stage with a real diploma in her hand, followed in a flash by the other two. Time is so precious, and I'm glad I am able to be in this moment, appricating it, and sharing it with all of you!

The post I've been avoiding....

I'm sorry I've been away, but most of you who know me in real life know the cause of my absence. It's been very difficult to post about this, but I have to, because moving forward my life will never be the same again. Two weeks ago, I was getting the girls ready for a trip to the zoo. I heard my husband shouting downstairs for me, which was odd because he had left for work two hours before. The moment I saw him, I knew something was terribly wrong. He was pale, well, paler than usual, which is really hard to pull off for someone of Irish descent. Nevertheless, he told me something I had been expecting, but not this way. He said they thought my dad was dead. My dad had a really close call last year, and his health was always a concern for me. The thing was, it wasn't his health. There was a fire. The absolute most horrible way to go. Immediantly I felt like the world was collapsing beneath me, and it's taken quite a while to feel stable again. As time went on, we learned more facts, or theories since nothing has been released yet. The fire was seemingly started by another tenent of the building, in response to an argument she was having with the owner and her grandson, over something obsecenly stupid. The owner claims the woman had been drinking. The fire was HUGE. Nothing is left. The person accused of starting the fire, Khirsty, however, was heard yelling for my dad, banging on his door and trying to awaken him to get hime out. Then there was her screaming, and nothing else. The autopsy had come back that both died due to inhailation of smoke and accelerants. That is all I know of what happened. Exactly how the fire was started, what was used, and if there are any other things contributing to the fire is unknown. The worst part is that my father was burned beyond all reconition, and we had to have dental records pulled to id his body. There was about 4 days where we were just hoping that he had left and someone else was sleeping in his bed. It was a desperate thought, and one we knew wasn't true, but with something this horrific, you try to grasp something. My dad did something for me before I found out he died that I will cherish for the rest of my life. The fire was Thursday morning at 12:30am local time. Thursday night, obivious to what had occured that morning, I was going to bed. Usually we take the dog out right before bed, and she would go straight up to her crate and crawl in. Not this night. She refused, started barking, and flipped her crate. So I let her out, and she just sat right next to my side of the bed. James and I started talking about how dogs can sense things, so we pondered the chances of an earthquake occuring. Then I said, "I hope I'm not about to die, or someone we know is going to die, dogs usually can tell." She finally fell asleep, and so did James, but I could not. Then, I felt three distinct kisses on my cheek. I said "thank you" outloud, assuming it was a spirt guide or something like that. The next morning is when I found out he had died. I truely believe it was my dad telling me he was okay, and goodbye before I knew, so there was no way I would question it or think I was imagining things. He was someone really amazing. From my very early childhood, he taught me to question things, to think about the big picture, to accept things beyond ordinary sight. He was a man who lived many lives in one, a hippie to a devout christian to a open minded lover of god and the universe; an explorer and daredevil to a disabled retiree; a married man living in the rural midwest to a single man living in the metropolis of Hawaii. Through all things though, he was funny. Puns and jokes were always coming from his direction, and through the memorial and the skattering of his ashes, I tried to use humor as a way of connecting with him and keeping his memory alive. He loved this blog, and checked it every day as a way of keeping up with his granddaughters. Explaining to them why Grandpa Larry is not going to be with them any longer has been difficult. Sophia and Maia are both at an age where they realize that something terrible has happened, and that their momma is sad. It's been a beautiful thing to know they are there, that they need me, and that they are helping to heal me. Sophia put a cup on my stomach a few days after dad's passing, and I asked her what she was doing. Her reply? "I'm draining away all your tears momma." Of course, a few hours earlier I had started to cry, and she said "Momma, can't you keep it in, for us?" They both understand that while Grandpa is dead, his soul is still alive, he can still see us, and visit us, and that we just can't see him. What is sad about death is not us being sad for the passed, but being sad for ourselves, because we are without those we love. I have felt my dad a few times since he has died, and know he is okay, but nothing will be the same. Since this terrible tragedy, I have been delighted to find out how truely wonderful my friends and family are. Their support has been unwaivering and overwhelming. I was able to go to Hawaii for 6 days to set his affairs in order and skatter his ashes without a worry, knowing my husband and friends had my girls in perfect care. The kindness from everyone he worked with and knew in Hawaii was equally beautiful. I am going to take the beauty of this tragedy, the lessons and demonstrations that out of tragedy can come love, strength, grace, and beauty. That while he is gone, without a doubt he said goodbye and is in a better place, and that his love, sense of wonder, and humor will live on in myself and my girls. So in that note, one last post for my dad:

A Maia original: Why did the cow cross the road? Because the chicken was to tired too!

A Quick Update.....

Craziness has been the order of the day, every day since I last posted! It's been a brutal grind going to multiple classes a day, and we are all

wiped out! But, I do want to throw out some new pictures, and some new thoughts about life and raising three girls. First, how awesome is that mid-air shot of C tossing an Easter egg!? She was "painting" it, and I was taking a picture at just the right time when she threw it. If you look closely, you can also see the few teeth she has in that shot as well. Also, we have been very busy, in addition to multiple preschools, dance class, and daily swim lessons, planting our garden. The onions, garlic, lettuce, spinach, carrots, and zucchini are all in, and sprouting. Today or tomorrow the cantalope and tomatoes will go in, since it's going to be very warm. The girls LOVE to help sprinkle the seeds, and Celia particuarly loves to dig. She also likes to lick the dirt off of the shovel. Lovely. Looking at that picture really strikes me at how big she is getting. Yesterday, Sophia brought home a lovely strain of strep throat. Poor kid. It was going around her school, so naturally she got it. She is a DRAMA QUEEN already, but she really turned it up on this. Sitting in the doctor's office she just broke down sobbing because she felt so badly. Thankfully, she got antibiotics yesterday, and today is feeling 100% better. I've never seen anything work so fast! Thank goodness, because tonight they have dance recital pictures, and I don't want sicklings around for that. Even through all the schedule madness, we've really been keeping along at a great clip. One more week of swim class to go, then two weeks of school, and we are DONE for the summer!

ER- round 2

Little Miss Celia is really giving me a run for my money! She was having a lovely day yesterday, being totally normal for the most part. During swim class, she felt really warm, but I assumed it was because she was in a 90 degree room. I gave her tylenol just in case, but forgot about it. Then, last night as James was laying her down, she started shaking. Totally body, uncontrollable shaking. I sprinted in there, grabbed her, and got her to my bathroom, when she promptly threw up. She was on fire, so I took a quick temp and it was 101.9 . Called my cousin, who conviently lives across the street, because her son has had seizures in the past, she came over and I called the doctor. She told me to go to the ER for two reasons, One was that she is already on antibiotics for this never ending ear infection and that you don't just spike a temp that high in minutes when you're on meds like that. The other reason was that we just want to make sure there are no other illnesses causing this. By the time James and I got her to the ER and had her temp taken again, she was 103.6 , which is the highest temp any of my kids has ever had. Long story short, the combination of the Ibprofin I gave her and the Tylenol they gave her got the fever down, she had a urine test to check for a UTI, and they checked her ears and she was fine. No idea what caused it, but it was very scary. We got home around midnight, she woke up three times, and got up for the day at 5:45. So I know that there are misspellings, but forgive me because of the lack of sleep. Thank god she is okay, but I hope that doesn't happen ever again!

Should've named her Socks....

I can not post pictures of this, because it would be disgusting, but I do have to share. Until we moved into this house, I never lost a sock before. I don't know if it's because the house is so big, or because 3 kids just lose stuff, but I'd find single socks all over the place. Now, I am finding them in very new locations. The other day, Wuzzy was gagging and puked. What was in her puke? You already know. A pair of socks, still balled up. I thought that was the end, but no. We have found socks in her poop two times in the last few days. One may have been a Barbie shirt, but I sure as heck wasn't going to break it down to find out. Either way, we seem to have a sock goblin on our hands. Not quite sure how to stop the problem, other than constantly harping on the kids to put their socks in the laundry basket, and we all know that is a 50/50 chance they will do it. The threat of Wuzzy puking them up has seemed to help modivate them a bit more. We'll have to see how long that lasts. Meanwhile, Celia STILL has an ear infection from her sickness I posted about ions ago, so today I finally got the doctor to give her some antibiotics. Maybe in the near future I'll start to sleep again. Maybe. Definately not this weekend though, because the floors are in and we are going to install them and the base cabinets that have been sitting in my front room for weeks now. It's going to look amazing! Postings may be a bit erratic this next month, due to the fact that Sophia and Maia will be starting swim lessons Mon-Thurs in addition to preschools and dance classes, so I may well go completely insane, instead of the halfway point I'm at now. It's going to be a challange keeping Celia entertained for the whole class, and even harder to keep her out of the water, since that girl LOVES water in all forms, especially toliet water. Keep your eyes peeled for a picture of her screaming to get in the pool in the coming weeks! I hope you all have a fantastic weekend!